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False hope

Posted in MY RANDOM FEELINGS, MY RANDOM THOUGHTS with tags , , , , , , , , on January 5, 2013 by nursemihoko

Orginally written last December.


Dear Diary,


What hurts the most is living in a fantasy full of hopes, building impossible dreams, being with the UNTOUCHABLE people you love to be with, getting all you want and being in a world where you won’t get hurt and rejected but you know that those are things that so impossible to happen; even a tiny chance, those hopes have no knowable chance of coming to fruition; and that sucks!

It’s so hard to be happy when you know you’ll hurt someone because of your happiness. But what will you choose if you’re at my place? Self-happiness? Or  would you  rather let others be happy even if it means killing your own happiness? I don’t want to give someone false hopes because I know how it feels to be blinded by those fantasy hopes.

I don’t know what to feel. I hate talking about it. I am so scared to face it that any moment from now I would rather choose to run away from making those decisions than choosing an option.

Anyway, I still have time to think. I’ll leave it here as of now but be right back when I have a peace of mind.

PS. Thank you for being always there.

In Dilemma,



The Power of Positive Thinking

Posted in ABOUT SUPERANJ, MY RANDOM THOUGHTS with tags , , , , , , , , , , on November 14, 2012 by nursemihoko

Before I will turn off the light tonight, I would like to share my random thoughts I have on my mind right now. It’s like I was at the same boat a year ago while I was having my review for my NLE.  The feeling of being nervous about what will be the result and the thought that scares the hell out of me. Well, I thank myself for being an optimistic person… but sometimes, I also feel weak and down, worried and scared. What gives me hope and strength to do the best that I can is my supportive family.  I know I can make it. I trust myself and God, together we can make it. ❤

I can get over these  big mountains of difficulties by thinking over them. . IT IS ALL IN THE MIND !

On December 2, Bring it ON! And after that day, I will be a certified TOEFL PASSER! 🙂 Be Positive!!! 🙂

good night Philippines :*

Expectations lead to disappointments..

Posted in MY RANDOM FEELINGS, MY RANDOM THOUGHTS with tags , , , , , , on November 7, 2012 by nursemihoko

I just want to share my disappointments here. I am so sad that I don’t know what to do anymore. I was so happy with the thought that one thing in my past was recovered but then after a day of using it, t’was gone again. I’ve tried, and tried… but I guess, I am just too fool to believe that I will keep it forever this time. Sigh. Why do things come back when you’re already happy and fine?!  Seriously, I don’t get it! 😦

Yung feeling na…

Posted in Buhay Pag-ibig, Tagalog with tags , , , , on October 13, 2012 by nursemihoko

hindi ka pinapansin ng gusto mo.. </3

Ang hirap kung ikaw lang ang may gusto sa kanya.. grabe! >_<